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Ownership
Ownership and responsible mindset are coming. I can feel it. I’m getting done with the excuses in my head.
Another big step was all the sudden remembering how good I felt back when I was a firm 165. My confidence was out of control and so was my energy. Guess what? I also slept better.
Yes, these are all things I know. But once depression sets in it is quite difficult to shake. I do think I see the other side of everything though and am making small changes that will lead to the old habits I had.
off track
Oh look, a surprise post. I’m so glad that this is truly a personal blog. Although maybe I’d be better at updating if i had more readers and I knew they were keeping me accountable. But then again I will not promote this blog because I do like keeping it personal and people had to be really looking if they find it. lol
I’m so off track right now. The weight is tremendous. Embarrassingly high. But I will post it. It is embarrassing, but I will own my 185.
I know why this is. Literally, I went to school for my training degree. I know my health issues are a great excuse, but not the cause for the gain.
I know that I am responsible for the food and drink that have gone in to my mouth. All of those extra calories that I don’t need.
Yes, some of the not working out is directly health related. AT TIMES!!! Not the entire years worth of not getting back in a routine though.
I can still go and jog quite fast and still hit my 3.2 miles pretty easy. Cardio is still in tact. My time is actually better most days than it used to be. However, my asthma is worse. That’s an obvious since my diaphragm has to compete with my fat gut to get air into my lungs. Like the fluid in the lungs isn’t enough?
I jog and I can feel my belly bounce. My boobs don’t fit in my sports bras and it’s uncomfortable. Then of course none of my clothes are fitting well at all.
Hopefully by tossing this up it will wake me up. I have not been in a mindset to take responsibility for it. Hence the reason it keeps getting worse.